rhythm tempo bounce dat ass
Updated: Sep 16
When you dance to your own rhythm, life taps it toes to your beat ~ Terri Guillments
When I first came to NYC, dancing for me was an escape from reality. I was definitely in a low & I mean a very low vibrational frequency energy state. After losing everything that I worked so hard for in a blink of an eye back in Texas, dancing saved me! My craziness is normal for me but to others it is crazy, insane, mentally derange (maybe) lmao. At first it use to bother me but not anymore. I came down here to bring in new, uncreated light! I started dancing on the sidewalk with a small, loud PA bluetooth speaker backpack having fun. Then my bluetooth finally died on my speaker. So I had to make a choice to dance with headphones out in public where people will think that I am crazy or not dance at all. In NYC, there are a lot of people with mental health issues. So for some, to see a person dancing in public means something has to be wrong with them. For me, it was the path I had to do! I came to a self realization, that no matter what I did, most will not understand at first, second, or third hand but will, once they see what I do over & over again. I'm getting back into my element. Life of the party! I hate conforming! One reason why I started my spiritual journey in a homeless situation because I refused to work a 9 to 5 job. I hate working a 9 to 5 job (by hating, not desiring to work at a 9 to 5 job, I am destroying that 9 to 5 quantum entanglement job reality or having a fucking boss). I had created money opportunities that surpassed any 9 to 5 job income I ever received. Like a drug dealer. Ask any drug dealers that made thousands of dollars in week or two to quit & work a $17 an hour job. LMAO! So as I proceed through my spiritual path, I had plenty of dance gigs! I thought since people can’t hear what I am listening to, once I have music in the background, people will understand that I am dancing. Yet, it never happened. I was still being asked what am I doing? Even now, I dance in Manhattan! And people fear me! I hate that shit! But everyone isn’t on that frequency. In my mind, I thought Manhattan was the place where people can do weird shit. But a lot of people live in a fear based reality! I get it! There are people who talk to themselves out loud, there are some people who dance for no reason, there are some people where their mind is so called gone. I get it! But I am not going to allow another person perception of reality effect my own anymore.
See rhythm is a dance between two opposite states. For example summer & winter season. Most places around the world experience both seasons. What I just expressed from the paragraph above is the rhythm I had to compensate by moving towards the other side of the polarity pole. From being on the lower end of my vibrational frequency energy state of being to a higher state. But then I got caught up with staying on the higher vibrational frequency energy state of being and disowning my lower state. As I started to evolve, I realized that I need both higher & lower vibrational frequency energy state to be whole. One isn’t better than the other one. I told myself I don’t want to be stuck in any state for too long because the only thing that stays the same is change. So I prefer to stay in the middle of polarities. I can love & hate! I can be happy & unhappy! I can spend & invest! I can lean on one side of polarity for a while then lean on the other side of polarity for a while. What do I mean staying balance between both polarities? Coming from The Kyablion states “the great Fifth Hermetic Principle — the Principle of Rhythm — embodies the truth that in everything there is manifested a measured motion; a to-and-from movement; a flow and inflow; a swing forward and backward; a pendulum-like movement; a tide-like ebb and flow; a high-tide and a low-tide; between the two-poles manifest on the physical, mental or spiritual planes. The Principle of Rhythm is closely connected with the Principle of Polarity described in the preceding chapter. Rhythm manifests between the two poles established by the Principle of Polarity. This does not mean, however, that the pendulum of Rhythm swings to the extreme poles, for this rarely happens; in fact, it is difficult to establish the extreme polar opposites in the majority of cases. But the swing is ever "toward" first one pole and then the other.” So since I know already that the pendulum between both polarities will always swing back & forth. Why not combine both as one? No matter what, I will never be satisfied with my reality for eternity. I always desire to experience other shit. So I will always be happy & unhappy with my reality!
I was handling some paperwork on my fidelity account for stocks and shit. I was following a master teacher guide of how to option trade & fucked up! Supposedly! I am aware that my body went into some kind of panic state! I was like the world is over! I read once where a billionaire lost a lot of his funds & became a millionaire and killed himself. Most of us don’t know that our perception of making mistakes can either make or break us! I finally asked myself why am I fearful of making a mistake? Then I realized that it was due to programming in my childhood & teenager years. My mother had this programming that she’s perfect even though she had plenty of errors. Then when I was in foster care, I was not allowed to make any mistakes in my grades or I will get in trouble. So in my mind, everything have to be perfect without making any mistakes because mistakes imply getting in trouble. That’s my programming! I hate the fear of not making any mistakes. I hate that I associated mistakes as a bad thing! When mistakes are a part of this experience. I have a mantra for this! I am correct even when I am wrong! I can always correct my wrongs! I can always correct my errors! I can always correct my mistakes! Honestly & truthfully, my biggest work is freeing myself. I'm always writing or thinking about how can I free myself from my own prison. It took damn near all of my existence to finally be fed up with my pain and suffering. My pain and suffering prohibited me from enjoying what I have manifested. Dancing, stocks, money, jogging, friendships, women, games, etc. To the point my pain and suffering happens on a weekly or bi weekly basis. 2020 taught me a lot about myself.
“The importance of this will be appreciated by any thinking person who realizes what creatures of moods, feelings and emotion the majority of people are, and how little mastery of themselves they manifest. If you will stop and consider a moment, you will realize how much these swings of Rhythm have affected you in your life — how a period of Enthusiasm has been invariably followed by an opposite feeling and mood of Depression. Likewise, your moods and periods of Courage have been succeeded by equal moods of Fear. And so it has ever been with the majority of persons — tides of feeling have ever risen and fallen with them, but they have never suspected the cause or reason of the mental phenomena. An understanding of the workings of this Principle will give one the key to the Mastery of these rhythmic swings of feeling, and will enable him to know himself better and to avoid being carried away by these inflows and outflows. The Will is superior to the conscious manifestation of this Principle, although the Principle itself can never be destroyed. We may escape its effects, but the Principle operates, nevertheless. The pendulum ever swings, although we may escape being carried along with it.” ~ The Kybalion
From an earlier paragraph, I expressed that I stay in a balance of both polarities. Everything have it’s seasons. I can’t (as of right now) make the Sun go back down so it can be night time 11 o’clock in the morning. So I have to experience both day & night! I do what I have to do during the day & do what I have to do during the night, balance! I used to think life was hard! Why should life be hard? Where did I get that ideology from? For example! I started investing in stock? I became aware that I fear stocks? Why? Because I was taught that stocks are hard! The people that are around me either don’t know what stocks are or think stocks are too hard to understand. I had those kinds of thoughts since college days! Growing up, my families never talked about money! If money was the subject, it was money is the root of all evil and yet we need money live in this reality (there are people who live off grid). But I have been investing & spending so It feels great to buy what I want with no regards! I am mastering the game instead of being a pawn in the game.